"I Liked to Have Lost my Mind..."
Click Here for Original Posting of a letter to the Body of Christ by Evangelist/Pastor Barbara.
I am reposting a letter that Evangelist/Pastor Barbara Lynch wrote to the Body of Christ for this reason only. When I posted this to Facebook someone made an excellent comment. This comment explains the motivations of Evangelist/Pastor Barbara Lynch to a tee. I like to have lost my mind after reading the comment word for word because this is EXACTLY what Christopher and I have been dealing with.
February 1, 2026 PM SERVICE – Evangelist Pastor Barbara - Click Here for Original Posting.
To the church community:
TIME TO TAKE BACK WHAT THE ENEMY HAS BEEN STEALING!
2025 was a difficult year, but then in the 50 years I have been ministering, I have had many difficult years. I am rejoicing in what I had to go through this year, because it drew me even closer to God. It caused me to see what Jesus felt like when he poured His self into the people and they kept rejecting Him. But in the end, He still showed His love by saying: Father, forgive them, they know not what they do.
Through the years, I have found out that you can’t pray that prayer for everybody. I was praying that for someone that kept hurting me over and over again, and one day when I prayed that prayer, the Father said: Do not pray that over them again. They know all too well what they are doing. They planned it down to the very end. [Luke 23:34]
I said that to say this: Do not allow the naysayers to take you into places that will harm you. Be strong and of good courage. Stand up to the enemy and make him bow his knee. You will never win a battle arguing with the enemy. Place the situations in the Father’s hands and move forward. The Father has your back. He is fighting your battles for you. The Father always tells me: “Do not try to vindicate yourself, I will vindicate you.” I give every situation to Him and walk on.
Deuteronomy 32:35: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord. “In due time, their foot will slip; their day of disaster is near and their doom rushes upon them”.
Psalm 135:14: “For the Lord will vindicate his people and have compassion on his servants”.
Psalm 37:6: “He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn, the justice of your cause like the noonday sun”.
This is just another Job test you have to go through, so The Father can prove to satan you will not leave your Father in Heaven. You will find out when the battle is finished, you came out the other side stronger than you went in. You learned just how vile the enemy is and you vow to yourself that no matter what he sends your way, you are not going to buckle your knees to his tactics. You will know just how much the Father loves you, because He knew you would survive the attack. This is the time we sing Cains song “I made it.” [Job 1:6-22]
The Father taught me an important lesson early on in this ministry. He gave me this life saving scripture. Luke 22:31-34 NIV Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift all of you as wheat, but I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers.”
When the first church split happened, I was lying prostate on the floor crying out to God WHY? And he gave me another scripture. Isaiah chapter 54 and he told me: This is your scripture and you can always stand on this scripture.” I especially love verse 17 which states “No weapon forged against you shall ever prosper.”
He also told me to read the RED LETTERS in the word, and whatever they did to Jesus they would do to every remnant child of God. Children of God, if they did it to Jesus who was sinless, they will do the very same thing to you. [Rejoice in your afflictions]
The enemy loves to tear down the righteous ones. You cannot stop ministering just because some naysayer decides they are going to destroy you. I like what Reverend Rick Joyner told the authorities who were trying to shut down his ministry recently. “You didn’t call me and you can’t shut me down.”
I was questioning The Father, why he uses me one way to prophecy and uses the other people in the church to prophesy another way, and He told me: “As I was with Moses, I am with you.”
Numbers 12:6-8 He said, “Hear now My words: If there is a prophet among you, I, the LORD, will reveal Myself to him in a vision; I will speak to him in a dream. / But this is not so with My servant Moses; he is faithful in all My house. / I speak with him face to face, clearly and not in riddles; he sees the form of the LORD. Why then were you unafraid to speak against My servant Moses?”
I always teach that you must know that you know that you know who you are in Christ Jesus.
The problem in the Body of Christ is that they do not know who they are and the enemy can push them all over the place. You must know who you are in Christ Jesus and stand your ground. If you weren’t one of God’s Chosen Ones, the enemy would leave you alone. Always remember, [the enemy does not harass his own.]
Psalm 105:15 Amplified Bible
“Do not touch My anointed ones, And do My prophets no harm.”
Is this your first battle? Welcome aboard. Your Faith is being tested to the very core. Have you been growing your Faith like the Father told us, or did you just let that admonition slip right by you?
Our Faith is being sorely tested. This not the time to be playing games. You need to be holding on tight to your Faith, because the enemy has his Naysayers that have been turned over to reprobate minds and they really believe they are doing God’s will. Your faith must be stronger then ever. It must be mountain moving faith.
James 1:1-4 ESV – Greeting – James, a servant of God 2 Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, 3 for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. 4 And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
Peter 1:7: “So that the tested genuineness of your faith—more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire—may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ”.
Deuteronomy 8:2: “And you shall remember the whole way that the Lord your God has led you these forty years in the wilderness, that He might humble you, testing you to know what was in your heart”.
Hebrews 11:17: “By faith Abraham, when he was tested, offered up Isaac”.
Romans 5:3-4: “Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope”.
These verses highlight the importance and purpose of faith being tested in the life of a believer.
Let the enemy know that he has a tiger by the tail and he is in serious trouble—your protective angels have been loosed on assignment, and he is getting ready to get his just dues.
While we are frozen in place, work on your faith. If you want to work in the miraculous, you will need faith. When I became born again in 1978, I just knew that if God said it, I could do it. Great signs, wonders and miracles followed.
When I began to listen to man’s voice in Delaware that told me: You cannot be doing theses things. I started questioning what I was doing, and I lost faith for the miraculous.
I have regrouped and I now know without a shadow of a doubt, that the Bible means what it says and ONCE AGAIN I AM STANDING ON: Mark 16:17-20 New International Version
17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons; they will speak in new tongues; 18 they will pick up snakes with their hands; and when they drink deadly poison, it will not hurt them at all; they will place their hands on sick people, and they will get well.”19 After the Lord Jesus had spoken to them, he was taken up into heaven and he sat at the right hand of God. 20 Then the disciples went out and preached everywhere, and the Lord worked with them and confirmed his word by the signs that accompanied it.
This is an invitation for you to join me.
FAITH FIRST; THEN STRENGTHEN YOUR BRETHERN!
BE BLESSED
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This is not my comment but someone else’s that is 1000% spot on!!!
“She is stuck in a loop. She keeps saying God told her not to vindicate herself... but look... she compares herself to Jesus all the time. She gives the image of herself being a true martyr, subtly insinuating that anyone who speaks against her is a demonic reprobate "naysayer". See how wonderful, amazing, noble, righteous, and godly Pastor Barbara is? Sacrificing herself and giving of herself until she sweats great drops of blood in her study, where she doesn't read or study the Word of God? Its incredible how benevolent she is. Loving her enemies to the core. Either they are demonic reprobates and are on the cusp of being destroyed by God Almighty, announcing it gleefully on her ministry platform - or she is loving and praying for her poor, misguided enemies, for their salvation and redemption. It can't be both. But yet, it is.
Her offense and bitterness forces her to lobby for the naysayers destruction. She has to make sure they know she will get her jabs in, as her pride forbids anyone to get one-up on her. But in the next breath, so that no one calls her out on her actions, she will portray herself as Jesus Christ 2.0. It only matters that the big tithers believe the charade. All the others are chaff, disposable tools.
Just look at the dynamic of this letter. You can't make this up.
What comes through very clearly in this letter is a deep pattern of self-vindication, spiritual grandiosity, and persecution thinking, all wrapped in religious language. Pastor Barbara consistently places herself in parallel with Jesus, Job, Moses, Simon Peter, and the prophets, elevating her personal experiences and conflicts to a biblical scale. Ordinary disagreement, accountability, or exposure is reframed as cosmic warfare. Those who challenge her are not treated as fellow believers who may be discerning error or wrongdoing, but as agents of Satan or people turned over to “reprobate minds.” This framing effectively removes any possibility of self-examination and places her above correction. Psychologically, it reflects a fragile authority that must be constantly reinforced through claims of divine endorsement, especially during a time when her power, control, and financial stability are threatened.
There is also a heavy persecution narrative running throughout the letter. She portrays herself as repeatedly wounded, betrayed, and attacked, while simultaneously asserting that God personally speaks to her, defends her, and vindicates her. Every criticism becomes proof that she is chosen rather than a signal to pause, listen, or repent. Past church splits are presented as evidence of faithfulness instead of moments that might warrant serious reflection. The repeated idea that “the enemy does not harass his own” is particularly dangerous, because it teaches the congregation that opposition can never be legitimate. This creates a moral environment where loyalty to the leader is equated with loyalty to God, and disagreement is treated as rebellion against heaven itself.
Emotionally, the letter swings between wounded victimhood and aggressive spiritual dominance. On one hand, she speaks of being hurt and rejected; on the other, she invokes divine vengeance, angelic retaliation, and judgment against critics. This combination suggests unresolved anger and fear being externalized and spiritualized. Language about enemies “getting their just dues,” angels being “loosed on assignment,” and opponents slipping into disaster is not pastoral or encouraging. It is intimidating. Instead of comforting a congregation dealing with closures, hardship, or confusion, the focus turns inward to her personal battles and demands that the church rally around her authority.
Scripturally, the letter contains multiple serious distortions. Luke 23:34 is used to justify withholding forgiveness, with the claim that God personally told her to stop praying forgiveness over certain people. This directly contradicts Jesus’ clear teachings on forgiveness and love of enemies, which are not conditional on whether the offender “knows what they are doing.” There is no biblical support for the idea that God forbids praying forgiveness over someone because they are intentionally harmful. That conclusion reflects a desire for vindication, not Christlike mercy.
Judgment passages such as Deuteronomy 32:35 are also misused. These verses affirm God’s sovereignty over justice, not a leader’s right to imply doom or punishment upon critics. When paired with personal grievances, they become weapons rather than warnings meant to inspire humility. Psalm 105:15 is similarly abused. In context, it refers to God’s protection of the patriarchs during redemptive history, not a modern leader’s immunity from accountability. Using “do not touch my anointed” to silence scrutiny is a well-known tactic in spiritually abusive systems.
The comparison to Moses in Numbers 12 is one of the most alarming elements of the letter. Moses’ unique role in redemptive history is used to suggest that questioning her is equivalent to questioning God Himself. This directly contradicts New Testament teaching, where leaders and prophets are explicitly told to be tested, discerned, and held accountable by the body. No leader is granted Moses-level authority in the church, and claiming that status is a red flag for authoritarian control.
The repeated framing of opposition as a “Job test” is also a misuse of Scripture. Job’s suffering was not the result of people exposing wrongdoing, nor was it a justification for condemning others. In fact, Job is corrected by God, and his friends are rebuked for speaking falsely about Him. Using Job to validate self-righteousness and silence critics reverses the actual lesson of the book, which centers on humility, repentance, and God’s sovereignty, not self-defense.
Ethically and emotionally, the letter crosses into intimidation. Statements about angels being deployed, enemies being in “serious trouble,” and faithless people facing consequences function as spiritual threats. This creates fear rather than faith, especially for vulnerable members who may already feel confused or uneasy. Instead of shepherding hearts and consciences, the letter pressures conformity through fear of divine punishment.
The closing “invitation” exposes the core issue. The call is not primarily to Christ, repentance, reconciliation, or truth, but to alignment with her, her narrative, and her authority. Even the phrase “strengthen your brethren” rings hollow, because the letter divides the body into loyalists and enemies. Biblically, true leadership points away from self and toward Christ, welcomes correction, and bears fruit in humility, peace, and gentleness. What is displayed here is the opposite: defensiveness, self-centering, and moral absolutism justified through selective Scripture.
Taken together, this letter reflects a leader under pressure who responds not with humility or accountability, but with spiritualized self-defense, distorted theology, and emotionally charged rhetoric. The real danger is not just doctrinal error, but the creation of an environment where abuse of power can be justified as obedience to God, and where those who expose truth are labeled as enemies rather than listened to.”
Whoever submitted this comment really understands what has been happening with the cult of the Lighthouse Inc., Church under Evangelist/Pastor Barbara Lynch. This signifies not only this cult but all other cults that are active in the Body of Christ. I love all of the comments but this part is really cool, "Using “do not touch my anointed” to silence scrutiny is a well-known tactic in spiritually abusive systems."
The Body of Christ is afraid and quotes the story of David and Saul to silence any opposition to those who do wrong. There is nowhere is scripture where God warrants silence against abuse in any form. The Body of Christ needs to get real with the Word of God. The Word of God is meant to be used for correction... if you don't believe me why is this scripture in the Word?
2 Timothy 3: 16 (Amplified Bible)
16 All Scripture is God-breathed [given by divine inspiration] and is profitable for instruction, for conviction [of sin], for correction [of error and restoration to obedience], for training in righteousness [learning to live in conformity to God’s will, both publicly and privately—behaving honorably with personal integrity and moral courage];
It's written for a reason.
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